I will praise you in this storm, and I will lift my hands.
You are who You are, no matter where I am...
Its hard to call my little tiny rain drop sized issues a storm, but sometimes, it feels stormy. It is hard to feel defeated at the end of the day... Being a wife, mother and child of God is pretty much all I've got going on for me right now. When I suck at that, I pretty much suck at life. I know, I know, its a little dramatic. But I should be able to get through the day with a Michelle Duggar voice shouldn't I? I mean really? I love that woman's tone of voice...but when your one year old poops in her underwear, its hard to keep up that sweet meek talk. Its even worse when I am ALMOST there...its bath time!!!! And today, I blew it. Ugh. Solomon totally calls me out on it to... "Great job yelling mommy...." Thanks Mr. WAY TOO SMART FOR YOUR OWN GOOD!!!!!!!
I'm pretty transparent here, because it's my place to do that. I have been clear that I have to truly fight to be strong enough to NOT listen to "the lies" ...and well sometimes I am just not that strong. Today, I feel insecure. Insecure in friendships, as a mother, in my marriage...just inadequate.