Its been an interesting week for me. I have been up to some things...just little things.
Like...
I got this new purse.
I made my friend Jeana some cupcakes for her birthday bash at Chipotle.
Was given this magazine page by Candice because this pretty much sums Shiloh up...
I fed Shiloh peas
Then fed her her toes...
Watched this grump fuss all over me!
Hypnotized my kids with Barney.
Did some February prep...
Also, I got really overwhelemed (again) at the thought of homeschooling. I tried to share it with Will and since he didn't seem to get it, we had a
MASSIVE BLOWOUT tiff. ;) I am so scared that I am doing the wrong thing as a parent. I am so scared that I am ruining Solomon and Shiloh. I worry so much about this. Sometimes I do feel so alone because it is hard to find the "you're doing a great job" feeling inside of me. I feel like if I had the right discipline techniques, Solomon would stop saying things like "stupid" and "shut up." Or if I was "tough eoung" I would let Shiloh cry herself to sleep every night until she slept alone, through the night. I second guess everything I do and I just wish I would trust myself. In my heart, I feel like I
KNOW what my kids need, but with so many different people around, I always let thier opinions or ways of doing things cloud my view. I'm trying really hard to just trust my heart, because I know that I have wonderful, attached children, who are so connected with us, other people, and thier own emotions and hearts, and so maybe, just maybe, I am doing something right. I am trying with my whole heart and I just really want to have the right perspective and attitude.
Speaking of perspective, Kara Noel at Eli's Lids wrote
THIS and wow...it is powerful. Its a really short, wonderful read. I cried (shocker right? ;))
